♥ i'm right here waiting for you!
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 -{'9:32 AM
TODAY
im feelinqq tire @ e moment.
life seems to be nothinqq to me anymore.
parents no lonqer loves me like usual.
they didn't trust makes me so sad. :'(
im tire of livinqq, there's no more chance le mars?
im not criminal, someone pls tell me what should iie do?
iie dun wana be e criminal already.
all iie wanted was freedom&trust, if there's no freedom&trust life will be nothinqq.
someone tell me m iie right or wronqq na?
doctor here askinqq me not to be so stress, here im tryinqq my best.
now they r qivinqq me more stress na.
alrighhts. let say, yesterday iie went out in e morninqq out for traininqq.
then not approve jiu wana qqOo baby's there interview.
then went home @ ten plus, at least iie did tell daddy mars.
he say iie din tell him that morninqq iie already went out,
tot iie called him that tym is just wanted to qqOo out.
iie rmb iie mention in e phone that,
me:daddy,im qqOinq for starbucks interview, just finish e M&S traininqq. i didn't pass then a little too stress, so maybe try workinqq @ starbucks ba.
daddy:hmmmm. blahblahblah.. (cause forget what he says already)
forget it lars, always i will be the 1 wronqq de lors.
none of them will be wronqq de.
YESTERDAY
mummy mouth say past then past already then 4get it,
don't want say already.
but yesterday on phone when reach home 10plus.
sayinqq that thinqq in e phone aqain.
once & aqain....
iie can sense that im really a criminal to them forever.
i wanted to qive up my LIFE, but qivinqq up my life tis way is a little too WASTE.
but iie no lonqer have the kindd of happiness already. :'(
iie dun1 leave my life this way. :(
iie wanted to find job that can work up many hours of my day.
don't want have time for family anymore.
see them really makes me CRYS!!
parents no lonqer LOVE me anymore.
they treat me like a criminal now, no lonqer their precious daughter.
ie duno & dun1 2 b a criminal, criminal also have "YELLOW RIBBON"
y didn't iie have it from eu all?
y can't give me another chance?
forcinqq me onli makes me feel like leavinqq & keepinq away from them.
iie will qqOo crazy if this qqoes on.
im tire, they're qivinq me more stress & tryinqq hard to get stress away from me.
but. . they're qivinqq me mOre.
im tire already real tire already.
doctor ask me relax myself keep myself away from stress.
but... nevermind, 4get it.
SUNDAY
finally a day ful of happiness.
but is still not 100% of happy, is only 80% of happiness.
a few times chattinqq with baby today.
didn't went for dragon boat today, he wasn't feelinqq well & also can't wake up.
he finish work @ 4am again.
then after that didn't straight qqOo hOme.
he went slack around with colleague lo.
wonder if iie work @ starbucks will iie be as tire as olio?
wonderinqq ehs,hope iie can tahan.
iie really need $$$ lorhhs.
wana learn so many thinqs, malay,dance&beauty course neii?
all need $$ derhhs, so no choice?
im hopinqq parents will accept baby.
cominqq september iie will be 17 already,
next year qqOinqq 18 lerhhs.
biqq enough to know what i'm dOinqq &
iie really know what to do or not do in a relationship,
we both really just need parents consent.
his daddy also see me before already, also know i'm her gf.
after all he is still the 1 that always ask me to be a good girl to parents.
went clementi to had CHICKEN CUTLET again.
met aunty sandy,grace & glenda.
mummy, daddy& daryl also there of cause.
Labels: happiness? sadness?
